CRANKY CHILD

I TOLD YOU, HE IS A JERK. I TOLD YOU HE WAS SIMPLY FOOLING AROUND. WHAT IS THE USE OF CRYING NOW? I TOLD YOU THEN BUT YOU NEVER LISTEN TO ANYONE? YOU WERE IN LOVE WITH HIM!!!!!!!!!OH MY GOD….WHAT DID YOU SEE IN HIM

Tia could still hear these voices. Voices of her friends, her well wishers. After a year and a half of going back & forth……her love story had finally ended and it was still difficult for her to let go.

22 year-old Tia had fallen in love with a 35 year old chef. A media professional, Tia had met him through work and like it happens in movies, she was instantly attracted to him. He wasn’t “tall, dark and handsome’ yet she couldn’t stop staring at him when they first met. Some things in life don’t have any answer.

After few phone calls and couple of cozy meetings, she was completely smitten by him and before she could realize they were dating. Life was simply beautiful for Tia. This is all that she ever wanted. She loved everything about him. His eyes, his smile, the way he spoke, the way he treated her. She was enjoying every bit of it. He was the perfect one for her. Love is not only blind but also dumb.

Drinks at Geofreys, taxi drive back home, silent glances in a crowd, holding hands, random dance, passionate kisses, wild crazy blissful nights, house party, ,goodnight smses, stupid silly fights, insecurities, jealousy…..a perfect amalgam of all emotions for a perfect love story ….Its fun to be in love sometimes.

And as it happens, with most love stories. Hurdles, Villain, Problems. With time, Tia realized that he didn’t love her or maybe he did. Ya ya she was confused or maybe he was just commitment-phobic (she preferred to believe the latter one for her own sanity). Whenever they fought, Tia would always take the initiative to apologies or make up without any fault of hers. Yea sometimes even he called her when he was in a nice mood to make up. Love makes you lose not only yourself but also your self-esteem.

I am telling you this man is taking you for a ride. He is simply fooling you. Leave him. It will be difficult initially but then you will be fine. Believe me. Advise & more advise from Tia’s friends. She knew they were right. They were all right and she was with thewrong man…When you are in love even the most wrong man seems to be Mr. Perfect

That night, Tia didn’t sleep. She started writing. Writing about everything she felt, had experienced, about her cranky child(that’s what she called her chef), her friends' advise, her love for him, the happy times, fights, love-making, his flirtatious nature, romance, things she liked and disliked in him…just everything. Once she had penned everything shefelt, she read it and cried her heart out. Crying definitely helps sometimes.

She finally accepted that she had to let go. She couldn’t continue living with self-pity and let go of the most pleasant years of her life by crying for someone who simply didn’t care. Yes she still loved him but she knew with time, she’ll be fine. Yes, she knew she had to face her friends who will again repeat I TOLD YOU SO…but Boyfriends keep changing, friends don't. True friends will always stand by you...Did she regret her relation with him…hmmm…??!!!!!#%....OFCOURSE NO…she had the most beautiful time of her life with him. He was the man she still loved and his thought still made her smile and she knew it was all worth it…Yea that happens when you are hopelessly in love :-)

It's not easy to imagine life without you, I don't know how am going to go on. I am glad you came my way .I know I missed out on nothing and have no regrets about anything though friends kept warning and advising to keep away but I didn't listen. If I don't delete you from my life now, I will keep hurting myself. I am going to miss you, I am going to miss all those beautiful peaceful exciting moments but loving you is more painful than missing these moments. I still love you and atleast for now I know I will wait for you to feel the same for me till then I take your leave. And maybe you will never love me & I will have to live with that fact. From Tia to her cranky chef

no clue what to call this one...

i have no clue what made me write this...lk always its da 1st draft withut any improvisation....here it goes
Too many mistakes
One Life
Never learnt from mistakes
Thats my life
Love is all
I have to give
Bitch, Slut, Flirt
Even thats me
Search for happiness
Search for peace
Love, Money, Fame
All I want
Won't be happy
When I get them all
Confused
Yes! thats me
Vulnerable, Innocent
Thats also me
Hope, Dreams, Faith
I have them all
Lets see what happens
Am all set for the wrong
Completely Self - obsessed
You know by now

Such is Life

Love, security that’s all she ever wanted…like any other girl but unfortunately Maya got none unlike others around her. Ofcourse she fell in love, broke up, cried, had flings with older men, married men too..all this & much more just for the search of that perfect someone she never got. A model by profession, she always had the most good-looking men wooing her. She assumed they loved her but it was just lust. After few making-out sessions…all was forgotten blatantly.
At 38 she had everything that anyone would kill for. A great career, financial stability,great body, designer clothes, hot men around her…but is this all that she ever wanted.Na all she wanted was love that she still craved for like an 18 year old insecured woman & all that she got was no strings attached relationships if she could call them ‘relationships’ that is. The last time she felt close to someone was around 5 years back. Abhimanyu & Maya hit it off well right from day one. Romance was in the air. She really loved him & was sure that he loved her too but like most men was scared of commitment. Then everything fell apart as both of them were involved in the relationship for completely different reasons. One for love & the other for lets try if this work . It ended on a very bad note with Maya going for an abortion as Abhimanyu had no intentions of getting married to her at that time nor Maya was strong enough to have a child outside wed-lock.
But could she blame him. Abhimanyu was clear right from day one that lets just go with the flow & like always he directed the flow to suit his convenience. After years Abhimanyu had called her to meet. She couldn’t stop thinking about all those wonderful time they had spent together. Though they hardly met then due to work commitments. He always made sure he made up for it. She had no reasons to complain. Of all the men she ever dated or liked Abhimanyu was different, very special & close to her heart. She always thought that they’ll eventually get married but only if we could direct our lives.
And now after years she was going to meet Abhimanyu again. Little skeptical though she still wanted to meet him.As she was locking her door her phone rang. Hello…Oh hi Abhimanyu…you’ve reached?…Give me 15 minutes & I’ll be there. When Maya reached their once-upon a time hang-out, she saw Abhimanyu waiting outside patiently. I am so sorry to keep you waiting but you know what….before she could complete the sentence, Abhimanyu kissed her cheek. He put his arms around her slim waist & walked her in the lounge.Too stunned to say anything Maya just smiled.
While placing orders for their drinks Abhimanyu held Maya’s hand. How you’ve been luv?. Its been years. You still look so beautiful & radiant like always.Thanks Abhimanyu & she pulled her hand back. As their drink came Maya tried her best to fake the smile she was used to on the ramp. So what made you call me yesterday after so many years. Finally Maya asked him. Just generally luv. First lets have a drink. Then I’ll tell you. That’s all he said.
So hows work. Where you working these days? asked Maya. I have opened a restaurant in Malaysia. I keep coming down to India every 6 months to meet my mom & you know how much I love India. What are you upto these days? I know you’ve become very famous. You are there in almost in all fashion magazines babe.” “ Stop flattering me Abhimanyu. I am happy with my work and life.. Life is just going on & I am just going with the flow you know. Abhimanyu’s expressions changed as she said this. He knew she was being sarcastic but he just smiled. Come let’s dance Maya. No. Come please & he pulled her close to him. Within minutes she was enjoying the dance with him like she always did. Suddenly Abhimanyu stopped dancing & went down on his knees. I know I have been stupid in the past & you have every right to be angry. But can you please forget everything & forgive me for all that I have done. I’ve always loved you. I still do Maya. Please marry me luv.
As he said these words Maya was almost in tears. She tried her best to fake her famous smile but failed miserably & cried. After some time she gathered herself again & made Abhimanyu stand. Please Abhimanyu don’t do this with me. I am tired & don’t have the strength to go through this again. Let’s just forget all this please. No Maya, I mean it. It was my fault. But I love you Maya. You know I was mad then. You really mean the world to me luv.Even then we always knew that we want spend our life together but I was just not ready then & was too imatured. Saying these lines Abhimanyu went down on his knees again & pulled out a ring from his pocket. Will you marry me Maya. Maya looked at the ring. It was the same platinum ring that he had given her years back which she had returned when they had parted ways. Say Maya will you please marry me.
Maya couldn’t stop smiling now. Yes Abhimanyu I will. The spectators to this eventful night started clapping & Abhimanyu placed a kiss on her lips. Life happens to you when you least expect it to. Thanks Abhi I was always waiting for this day. Me too luv & they made their way to their new life, such is life…..simply beautiful!!!!!

For u Adi

written by me around 4 yrs back 4 some1....today i don't know where is he....too emotional stuff...

Started as attraction

In due course we fell in love

The first kiss….The first fight….The first gift

The long talks

Simple messages

Waiting endlessly for each other

Blissful silence

Staring at the sky

Warm hug when I needed the most

Beautiful dreams

I remember them all

Things changed

Dreams broke

You walked away without saying a word

I cried….I yelled….but you didn’t care

Dismayed….Shattered….I still prayed

Hoping you will come back…BUT you didn’t

Time healed my pain but Love for you just flourished

Randomly once we met

Silence….Awkwardness….I could see

I just smiled

Pleasantries exchanged…I bid goodbye

You held my hand….I just smiled

Sorry….that’s all you said….I smiled

Love is unconditional….that’s all I said & walked away alone